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Freedom From Guilt

‘I can never forgive myself for killing my own child!’

The woman who said this was a member of the community in which I was serving as a Methodist minister. It transpired that she had had an abortion some years previously.  As gently as possible, I asked her: ‘Would you if you could?’ The silence that followed seemed interminable.  Eventually she whispered ‘Yes, I suppose so… BUT I CAN’T!’   ‘Good, in that case I can ask the Lord to help you’.  I have never known the Lord to fail to answer this prayer.

It is important to recognize that she had the freedom to choose. If she had said ‘no’ there is nothing further I could have done.  Having expressed her willingness to forgive herself, I could then ask the Lord to help her. Having received the Lord’s forgiveness and choosing to forgive herself, she was freed from a burden of guilt that she had been carrying for a number of years.

We can be guilty without knowing it.  I did not realise that I was a sinner needing a saviour until after I had become a Christian.  We can feel guilty for no good reason.  There is such a thing as false guilt.

Part of what God has done for us through His coming in the person of Jesus Christ is to make provision for us to enjoy freedom from guilt and the forgiveness of our sins: ‘Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures’ (1 Corinthians 15:3).

The prophet Isaiah foresaw what Jesus achieved for us through his death on the Cross: ‘He endured the suffering that should have been ours, the pain that we should have borne.  All the while we thought that his suffering was punishment sent by God.  But because of our sins he was wounded, beaten because of the evil we did.  We are healed by the punishment he suffered, made whole by the blows he received’ (Isaiah 53:4-5).

John, one of the disciples of Jesus, expresses it like this:  ‘(Jesus Christ) is the atoning sacrifice for our sins, and not only for ours but also for the sins of the whole world’ (1 John 2:2).  Through his death on the Cross Jesus paid the price for all our sins.  John also tells us that the blood of Jesus, God’s Son, purifies us from all sins (1 John 1:7).

The blood of Jesus washes away our guilt. An old chorus expresses it: ‘There is power in the blood’.   This is a mystery that I do not understand but nevertheless believe.

In the Catholic tradition it is customary to go to the Confessional in order to confess our sins to a priest and hear him pronounce absolution.  For those of us who are not Catholics it can be very helpful to acknowledge the truth of what has happened to a minister or another Christian who will listen to what we have to say and remind us of the truth expressed in the Bible that if we confess our sins, he will keep his promise and do what he has said he will do: he will forgive us and purify us. (1 John 1:9)   Our part is to choose to accept God’s forgiveness.

If we have difficulty doing this we may need to consider whether we have forgiven ourselves.

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Becoming Equipped

Becoming Equipped

Promise – Position – Presence – Provision – Power

  • Promise: “These signs will accompany those who believe: in my name they will drive out demons….they will place their hands on sick people and they will get well”  Mark 16:17-18 The promise is to those who believe in Jesus.  He is the Lord our healer.  Believers will act in his name, on his behalf, to continue our Lord’s ministry of healing and deliverance.
  • Position: Our position is in Christ.  We were included in Christ when we believed into him and received the gift of eternal life.
  • Presence:  “I saw the Lord always before me.  Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken”  Psalm 16:8 quoted by the apostle Peter on the day of Pentecost.  See Acts 2:25.  “I am with you always” Matthew 28:20
  • Provision:  God has made full provision for our healing and wholeness through his coming in the person of Jesus Christ.
  • Power:  “You will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you” Acts 1:8.  This final promise of Jesus was fulfilled at Pentecost and is available to believers today.

The Continuing Ministry of Jesus

I have long been convinced that the Church, as the Body of Christ, is meant to be continuing the ministry of Christ through the person and work of the Holy Spirit.

Something to notice is the way in which Jesus shared his ministry with his disciples:

“When Jesus called the twelve together, he gave them power and authority to drive out all demons and to cure diseases, and he sent them out to preach the kingdom of God and to heal the sick…so they set out and went from village to village, preaching the gospel and healing people everywhere” Luke 9:1-6

And also 72 others:

“After this the Lord appointed 72 others and sent them two by two ahead of him to every town and place where he was about to go…When you enter a town and are welcomed, eat what is set before you.  Heal the sick who are there and tell them, ‘The kingdom of God has come upon you’.  Later the 72 returned with joy and said  “Lord, even the demons submit to us in your name.” Luke 10:1,8-9,17.

During the high priestly prayer, Jesus said to his Father: ‘Just as you sent me into the world, I have sent them into the world’. (John 17:18).  Then, in one of his resurrection appearances he said to his disciples: ‘Just as the Father has sent me, I am sending you’. (John 20:21).

Jesus was sending them out to continue his ministry but they were not to do so in their own strength.  They were to wait until they had received the power of the Holy Spirit. (Acts 1:4-5,8).  Then they would realize that Jesus was back with them in a new way. (John 14:15-21,23)

This became their experience.  Mark concludes his gospel like this: ‘After the Lord Jesus had spoken to them, he was taken up into heaven and he sat at the right hand of God. Then the disciples went out and preached everywhere, and the Lord worked with them and confirmed his word by the signs that accompanied it’.

Paul testifies:

“I will not venture to speak of anything except what Christ has accomplished through me in leading the Gentiles to obey God by what I have said and done by the power of signs and miracles, through the power of the Spirit.  So from Jerusalem all the way around to Illyricum, I have fully proclaimed the gospel of Christ” Romans 15:18-19.

I believe that this is how it is meant to be today.

Towards Wholeness

Soon after leaving theological college in 1960, the opportunity came to study Clinical Theology under the late Dr Frank Lake, a Christian psychiatrist.  This involved attending seminars over a two-year period.  Dr Lake had developed a model for understanding the development of the human personality called ‘The Womb of the Spirit’ and emphasized the importance of what happened in the first nine months of an individual’s life. We looked at various types of personality and it was not long before I recognized myself as fitting into the schizoid  personality pattern, someone shy and withdrawn who found close relationships difficult.  I was very sensitive and tried to bottle up my feelings.

Following this I was generously given permission to attend a further course at Lingdale that was then the Clinical Theology centre in Nottingham.  We met on alternate weeks from Monday to Friday over a six month period.

We were a small group of clergy, all Anglicans apart from me.  The facilitator of the group was Brian Lake, also a psychiatrist and Frank Lake’s brother. We met together every morning with the same task: share what you are feeling.  Metaphorically speaking, I would hide behind a newspaper and peer out occasionally to see what was going on.

One day my dam broke: floods of tears and the release of incredible inner pain.  When the storm passed, I discovered to my surprise that my colleagues were still there, accepting and supporting me.  It was a most wonderful experience of love and acceptance.

Why was I hurting so much, where did the pain come from?  I began a search to find out.

Not long after this I became aware of the ministry of Wholeness Through Christ, a small charity offering training in prayer ministry through five-day training courses held at various conference centres up and down the country.

Each person attending one of these courses is offered time to explore their own need for healing and discover how the Holy Spirit can bring both healing and release from the effects of past hurts and sins as well as giving us the grace to forgive those who have hurt us.

Over a period of time I attended a number of Wholeness Through Christ courses and was eventually invited to join the team.  I found them very helpful and beneficial but the question that set off my journey towards wholeness was still unanswered.

By now I had come to understand how the Holy Spirit, the revealer of truth, can enable people to recover ‘forgotten’ memory, even the memory of an unborn child.

I went on another course called ‘Journey into Healing’ with the express intention of finding out how I was feeling when my mother was carrying me.

I was encouraged to lie on a mattress, curling up into a foetal position and breath deeply.  I began to experience some very powerful emotions, including murderous rage.

I realized that I could never be what my mother wanted me to be because she was hoping for a little girl.

At last I had found the answer.  My pain stemmed from feeling rejected while still in the womb.  I found that the discovery of the truth set me free, as promised by Jesus (John 8:31-32).

Healing the Memories

Healing the memories

The Psalmist tells us that the Lord is to be found in every situation in which we find ourselves (Psalm 139:7-8).  He is our creator.  The Lord saw what was going on while we were still in our mother’s womb (Psalm 139:15-16).

One of the great discoveries in recent years is the way in which the Lord can heal the wounds of the past.  The following is a brief outline of how this can happen:

  • Pray for the Holy Spirit to show you anything you need to see and understand – perhaps a ‘forgotten’ memory.  He promises to guide us into all truth.  John 16:13
  • Face reality as it was – discover the truth of what happened.  Accept that “what happened, happened to me”.
  • Allow the feelings to surface.  Feel what you felt.  Jesus was with you then and he is with you now.  Psalm 139.  He heals the broken-hearted and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3 He is to be found in the place of pain Isaiah 41: 9b-10
  • Mourn the loss of what you did not have.  Mourning is part of the healing process
  • Work through the feelings – anger etc. Jesus allows us “Let Him have it” and vent our rage on him.  “Crucify Him”  we cry.  His response is “Father forgive them”.
  • Choose to forgive the people who hurt you by telling God that you forgive them.  It is not necessary to tell the person himself.  See Mark 11:25.  Ask God to help you if you find it difficult.
  • Recognize any sinful reactions to what happened – anger, resentment, hatred, bitterness etc.
  • Seek release from any negative soul-tie to the person who caused the hurt.
  • Look to Jesus to heal the wound.  There is healing through the Cross.  See Isaiah 53:3,4-6 & 1 Peter 2:24.

Sometimes it is claimed that the ministry of healing the memories is not found in the bible. The answer to this is to be found in John 16:12-13, where Jesus says to his disciples: ‘I have much more to say to you, more than you can now bear. But when He, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all truth.’ This is known as progressive revelation.

Healing Defined

Healing is defined as wholeness of spirit, soul and body (1Thessalonians 5:23-24).  Healing of the spirit is concerned with the healing of our relationship with God and release from oppression by the spiritual powers of darkness.  Healing of the soul is concerned with the healing of the mind, will and emotions.  It is concerned with healing the hurts of the past and becoming released from the effects of trauma.  Healing of the body is concerned with physical healing.

Healing begins when we put our trust in Jesus Christ.  He is the Lord our Healer.  He has made provision for our healing through his death on the Cross (1 Peter 2:24).  As a result of his resurrection, he lives to be our Lord. Jesus ministers to people today through the person and work of the Holy Spirit who is described as ‘the Spirit of Jesus’ (Acts 16:7) and ‘the Spirit of Jesus Christ’ (Philippians 1:19).